Saturday, October 22, 2016

Lonely Island

So I tried Tinder, Bumble and Plenty Of Fish (dating apps) looking for an escape from my reality. None of it worked out. I didn't even make it out with a friend. I just have strangers in my memory now. A lot of my problems came from the fact that they we're real Christians and the fact that I am in love/lust/longing [for] with someone else. A tangible fellow who I've been invited out to meet with a few times but it alas hasn't come to fruition as well. While I want to believe he's a Christian there are a several aspects of his life that need to be worked on by God. As much as I want to be with him I  know these things won't change because I want them to and I'll only end up compromising what I believe like I almost did with the others from the dating apps. I thanks God for hindering those relationships and opening my eyes to the warning signs that these guys were not the one for me. However I'm still very much lonely and trying to find a way to be happy with Christ while single. Pray for me please and if you think it wise, please pray for the one my heart longs for also.

Saturday, August 20, 2016

Moving Forward

I want to see changes in my life so I'm going to start with the way I do things. Instead of lazying about on my free weekends I'll push forward with my dreams of becoming a profitable author. I love books and making up stories however my life has derailed so far from my desire that I feel that a change must happen in order to get where I want to be in life.

Short and sweet.

I'm debating on whether to publish them here first or not. I'll talk to you later. :)

Saturday, August 6, 2016

Another One... Anton Yelchin

I'll miss you Anton Yelchin. No, I didn't know him in person but from what I could see he was awesome at his  job. I really wanted to see where his career was going to go. He was so young (only a year older than myself) and so very good at acting. His career was blossoming when he left us abruptly.

I fell for his acting chops in the movie Odd Thomas. It was a strange and very cool film about a boy who could see the dead. I recommend it for those who love a good mystery movie.

My father is a Star Trek fan and thought Anton did a great job as the reboot Chekov however I didn't really pay attention as a kid to the original Chekov I was too busy being mesmerized by the OG Spock. However as an adult I can't disassociate Yelchin from his role as Chekov and is forever in my mind as Pavel Andreievich Chekov navigator of the U.S.S. Enterprise.

The first movie I saw him in was Fright Night the 2011 remake while it was not as good as the first one I still enjoyed it and was thoroughly entertained with his version of Charley Brewster.

I really liked his films and I hope we never forget the talent he brought to the screen. I think he would've done an awesome job as Ray Peterson in 'The Burbs'. How about you?

 From the few movies I've seen him in (which includes all the Star Treks) he constantly plays the guy who will do whatever it takes to protect the ones he loves and the boy who can never die. It comes as a shock to realize that it doesn't ring true in real life. Oh how I wish he were still with us. It's a completely selfish reason but I don't think he'd mind it too much.

I don't know where he went. I don't know what he believed that's why I don't say rest in peace because I'm not sure if that's true for that person. I believe the Bible when it says your soul lives on even if your physical body dies. I hope he went to Heaven but there are plenty of "good" people who go to Hell because they refuse to trust Christ Jesus with their life. Let his life be a wake up call for those who are waiting till they get old to "get right with the Lord". Don't wait. You never know when your last day will be either.

I Think I'm Back

Only one post in 2015 and now my first 2016 post is near the end of the year. Ooops well I've been busy figuring out life. Still haven't got it all sorted out but I think I'm back. We'll see. I"m about to experiment on here. Let me know what you think.


Monday, January 5, 2015

I want to go to South Korea

Today they said that I can't and that my wants were unrealistic. Maybe I am tight on time but maybe I can.

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Happy Loving's Day!!!

A lot of people don't even know this day exist or what it's about so I'm going to talk about today.

I learned about this couple when I was around 17 years old.
In the 1950's an interracial couple by the name of Richard and Mildred Loving got married unbeknownst to the government of Virginia where they resided. At that time however it was illegal in Virginia for an interracial couple to marry and so started years of turmoil for the Loving who tried to get their marriage legalized.

There is a HBO documentary on the Loving Story.

One thing I don't agree with that's pressing on my heart to mention is homosexual marriage. So that know one will misunderstand my promotion of this day as as gay/lesbian support I write this.

Mildred Loving has said she supports homosexuality and that's where her and I depart ways. Comparing her situation to gays and lesbians is completely wrong in my opinion. I see where she sees the similarity in the fact that she and her husband weren't allowed to marry by law like homosexuals  aren't but the difference goes deeper though. I've found that not only do gays & lesbians want their version of marriage legalized they want everyone to accept it and not tolerate others who may have an opposing views on the subject. They don't want people like me to express that God says they're sexual lifestyle is an abomination in His sight. They say they want to be tolerated but they want more than tolerance and in hypocrisy they don't show the same toleration they want to Christians who speak against their lifestyle.

Christians Marrying & Friendship
At the beginning of the video posted above you heard a man say that God separated the races showing that God did not intend for the races to mix. Obviously that man did no research on one of the most influential leaders of Israel, Moses. Moses was in an interracial marriage. His wife Zipporah was Kushite who's people were from northeast Africa. Multiple times in the bible (particularly the Old Testament) God told Israel not to intermarry with their neighboring countries because the women from the other countries would lead His people away from worshipping God to worshipping idols. In the New Testament we find God's requirements for marriage had nothing to do with race but faith.

2 Corinthians 6:14-18
"Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness? What harmony is there between Christ and Belial? What does a believer have in common with an unbeliever? What agreement is there between the temple of God and idols? For we are the temple of the living God. As God has said: 'I will live with them and walk among them, and I will be their God, and they will be my people.'

 'Therefore come out from them
   and be separate,
            says the Lord.
Touch no unclean thing,
   and I will receive you.'
  'I will be a Father to you,
   and you will be my sons and daughters, 

            says the Lord Almighty.'"

It's another thing to become a Christian after marriage to an unbeliever while you were an unbeliever also. But you're totally going against God's commands if you are a Christian and know your love interest or even good friend is an unbeliever and you're still pursuing a deep relationship. That's why I don't advise my own friends who are believers to date unbelievers because God didn't even come close to marriage in saying not to be yoked with them. He took on the topic of friendship, dating and marriage in His standard of Christian living.

2 Corinthians 15:33-34
"Do not be misled: 'Bad company corrupts good character.' Come back to your senses as you ought, and stop sinning; for there are some who are ignorant of God—I say this to your shame."

They will change you before you change them. I'm not saying there is no chance for them to change but your intimate relationship puts you in danger before it'll help them. Think about it you're already disobeying God to begin with by being in a relationship with an unbeliever, tampering with your personal relationship with God. You're already compromised. God will never tell you to disobey His commands in order to save someone. God doesn't need us but He gives us the opportunity to be apart of His grandiose plan. If He wants to save someone can do it without you.

Anyways I think this day should be celebrated especially by the tons of people who are in such a relationship, those who want to be, those who support it and those who love history.

This is as much a reminder to me as it is a message to you, the reader.

Monday, June 10, 2013


Hey yall,

   I haven't been here in a while. I just wanted to let you all know of my struggles and if it can enlighten anyone else that's even better. I know the Bible says drinking wine and even beer isn't wrong it's just the getting drunk part that can lead you to sin and un-Christ-like behavior is what he's trying to protect us from. I understand the rule, principle, and consequences of the rule. Since I have a self-realized consumption problem I want to stay away from alcoholic beverages altogether so I won't accidently get drunk.

   Taking this all into account, I've sort of developed a disdain for people who drink even though there is no biblical law against drinking and I'm trying to get over that. I know there are many people who drink to get drunk but my perspective of a person who drinks is what bothers me. I think it's wrong to add to the bible or make other feel bad for something there is no biblical law against. As the Word itself say judge not others on the keeping of days or lack of day keeping. Principally this means not to judge anyone based on frivolity. God never specified that we should honor a pagan holiday like Christmas but there s nothing wrong with celebrating the birth of Christ either. In the same manner, God never commanded us to drink nor did he tell us not to but the only specified rule is to not get drunk.

   So I feel bad because I was thinking that I wouldn't want a husband who drinks and while that is my prerogative, as long is he is a man who believes in Christ, what if I disregard the man Christ has for me because he drinks?

Yahh... I'm just thinking on these things and trying to fix my perceptions. I've been wanting to talk on this topic a while anyways because a lot of people think drinking is bad when it's not . It's getting drunk that's bad.

“I have the right to do anything,” you say—but not everything is beneficial. “I have the right to do anything”—but I will not be mastered by anything. 1 Corinthians 6:12

16 Therefore do not let anyone judge you by what you eat or drink, or with regard to a religious festival, a New Moon celebration or a Sabbath day. 17 These are a shadow of the things that were to come; the reality, however, is found in Christ. 18 Do not let anyone who delights in false humility and the worship of angels disqualify you. Such a person also goes into great detail about what they have seen; they are puffed up with idle notions by their unspiritual mind. 19 They have lost connection with the head, from whom the whole body, supported and held together by its ligaments and sinews, grows as God causes it to grow.
20 Since you died with Christ to the elemental spiritual forces of this world, why, as though you still belonged to the world, do you submit to its rules: 21 “Do not handle! Do not taste! Do not touch!”? 22 These rules, which have to do with things that are all destined to perish with use, are based on merely human commands and teachings. 23 Such regulations indeed have an appearance of wisdom, with their self-imposed worship, their false humility and their harsh treatment of the body, but they lack any value in restraining sensual indulgence. Colossians 2:16-23

15 Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise,16 making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil.17 Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord’s will is.18 Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit, 19 speaking to one another with psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit. Sing and make music from your heart to the Lord,20 always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ. Ephesians 5:15-20